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Sixteen-year-old Mark McDonough woke up early the
morning of Aug. 3, 1976. His room was like an oven. An orange glow
crept up the stairwell.
He heard the crackling downstairs in
his family's colonial in the Cleveland suburb of Fairview Park,
Ohio. As smoke filled the upstairs hallway, Mark rousted three of
his sleeping brothers. Tim, Patrick and Dan climbed out second-story
windows. Mark, the oldest, stayed behind.
His mother,
Dorothy, and youngest brother, Toby, were still inside.
Mark
went for his mother's bedroom. But smoke drove him into a bathroom,
gasping for air. He thought he could go through the window and reach
a sun deck off the master bedroom, where his mother
slept.
Mark punched the bathroom window but was unable to
move it.
He sucked in the fresh air from the outside and
dashed for his life. Blinded by smoke, he tumbled down the steps. He
reached for the front door. The knob turned, but the door was
swelled shut by the heat.
Mark got down low and raced through
flames to a door leading to the garage. Firefighters found him lying
in front of it. He was unconscious, in the fetal position. The skin
on his arms and hands was gone. More than 60 percent of his body was
burned.
The house that Dorothy and her husband, Thornton,
designed was destroyed. Thornton was in San Francisco on business
when he got the call at his hotel.
Mark awoke in the
ambulance in agony. As it sped to the hospital, Mark thought, "Oh,
God, please take me."
Today, McDonough is a plastic surgeon
who is glad to be asked about the thick, waffled skin on his arms.
When a horribly burned patient turns attention to McDonough's
disfigurement, it's a good sign.
"It's a barometer I have
that tells me they're getting better," he says as he rushes down a
hallway for surgery at Vanderbilt University Medical Center in
Nashville, Tenn. "In the first couple of weeks, they don't even
notice. They finally get out of themselves."
McDonough, 41,
is fit and tan, bursting with chatter as he moves through a
typically long day of advanced training on the leafy Vanderbilt
campus. He is entering the last year of a fellowship in plastic
surgery. His voice is husky from the ventilation tubes that kept him
alive. His body is a mosaic of skin grafts. Groin skin covers the
inside of his fingers. Layers of skin were peeled from his thighs
and buttocks and transplanted like sod on his arms, hands and lower
legs. He has had more than 30 surgeries.
Before McDonough
decided to become a surgeon himself, he was a physical therapist. He
used his experiences as a patient to help others. For eight years he
had his own physical therapy practice in Florida.
But he grew
tired of doctors telling him what was best for patients. At age 30,
McDonough decided he wanted to call the shots. He entered Case
Western Reserve University School of Medicine.
He now
performs some of the same surgeries that he endured. He talks to
fire victims in ways only he can.
Some hit closer to home
than others. When he was training in Tampa, Fla., he tended to a
badly burned 7-year-old boy whose mother set fire to their trailer.
When the boy regained consciousness, he pleaded with McDonough to
let him die.
"You know at that moment he's in touch with pain
that is incomprehensible," McDonough says. "Later, I went out to the
parking lot and puked my guts out."
His motivation is his own
experience as the kid on the table. But his sense of purpose did not
come easily. In the aftermath of the fire, McDonough had to decide
whether the physical and emotional devastation would defeat him or
make him stronger.
His brother Tony died in the fire. His
mother died of smoke inhalation, after spending two days on life
support. McDonough spent every waking moment praying to join her.
Ten days after the fire, he nearly got his wish.
McDonough
was finally stable enough for surgery to remove the dead skin. The
process is called debridement, similar to shaving cheese. Surgeons
would temporarily graft pig skin in place of the dead. Pig skin
protects the tissue and tells doctors if the burn area is ready for
grafting with the patient's own skin.
But McDonough's
injuries and the trauma of surgery were too much. His body's stress
response produced so much digestive acid that it tore a hole in his
gut.
This was one of the most feared complications of burns.
McDonough was losing blood. Doctors stopped the debridement and slit
him down the middle to remove part of his stomach. That's when his
heart stopped.
"I became completely aware of the fact I was
going down," he recalled. The pain stopped for the first time since
the fire. He was bathed in warmth and light. He felt the presence of
Toby and his mom.
"All of a sudden, I understood. All the
pain I was experiencing was a necessary part of life," he says. "I
understood there is a reason for this. But I'm not going to join my
mother and brother. I'm going to live."
His heart was shocked
back to life.
After he awoke from surgery, McDonough, heavily
bandaged and barely able to talk, told Thornton McDonough what
happened. "Do you believe you can die and live again?" he whispered
to his dad.
It was Friday, Aug. 13. Every Friday the 13th
since, Thornton McDonough calls his son to wish him a happy
birthday.
McDonough says the experience proved to him that
there is a God. And that the tragedy was part of a bigger plan. Even
if he couldn't understand it.
A spiritual awakening began. It
would help McDonough through difficult years ahead.
He spent
three months in the burn unit at Metropolitan General Hospital, now
MetroHealth Medical Center. No amount of morphine could relieve the
pain. Stripping layers of healthy skin for grafting hurt more than
the burns. Once a day -- sometimes once a shift -- he would be
submerged in a tank of water to cleanse the wounds. The cold was
unbearable.
With two-thirds of his stomach gone, Mark dropped
to 90 pounds. It was a month before he could get out of bed. He had
to learn to balance again to walk. His hands were a crumpled mass of
scar tissue. It would be two years before he could straighten his
fingers.
Dr. Richard Fratianne, the burn unit founder and
director, helped McDonough understand what was still possible. He
told McDonough that doctors, nurses and occupational therapists
could help restore his functional ability. But the future was Mark's
to decide.
"Winners see the bottle as half-full. The losers
see it as half-empty. Only you can control your feelings," Fratianne
told him.
McDonough was taken with Fratianne's strong
spiritual beliefs and persistent encouragement. The two developed a
bond that has endured. Years later, in medical school, McDonough was
invited to scrub for surgery alongside his mentor.
McDonough
chokes with emotion at the thought.
"It hits me. I'm in the
operating room with this guy who's as close to God as you can be. He
saved my life."
Slowly, he began to rebuild his life. After
missing his junior year in high school, he edged back into society.
He gradually shed fears of being stared at.
Today, McDonough
puts his injuries out there with unwavering confidence. He jumps up
during an interview and drops his pants to show his scarred thighs.
He casually flips off his clog to show a patient with severe ankle
burns the repair job on his heel.
Such displays reflect
remarkable strength, says Fratianne. At the same time, McDonough
isn't invulnerable to stares at the beach. People abruptly look
away.
But kids sometimes ask. McDonough lowers himself to
their level and tells them: "I was in a house fire, and I didn't get
out. If you're in a fire, you have to get out."
He and his
wife, Joan, have three boys. On their first date, he told Joan about
his near-death experience. "I absolutely believe he would not have
made it were it not for that," she says. "It's given him the
perseverance he has."
He has pushed through other setbacks.
McDonough had a stroke on the 19th anniversary of his mother's
death. He recovered fully. His medical training was interrupted in
1994 by burn complications that required three surgeries on his
heel. Last year, his residency program at the University of South
Florida lost accreditation and closed, forcing him into a desperate
search for another medical school. That's when he landed at
Vanderbilt.
Some might say the fire victim-turned-burn
doctor was divinely scripted. McDonough isn't so sure.
"I
think (God) and I each had a say in that," he says. "He gave me the
freedom to choose, and I felt obligated to do something with
it."
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